Saturday, June 25, 2011

I am now afraid to write songs...anyone feels the same?

I've gotten to a point where any song I write would depress me. I'm
scared to write, but if I don't write I have nothing else worthwhile
to do...and that's also depressing.

Within the last 2 years, I discovered that writing songs is my
passion. I started late...at 23. I knew I love music but was not
exposed to it while growing up. I picked up the guitar when I was
around 20. Now I understand enough to be able to write shitty songs.
I've written around 20 songs now. Recently, I realized that when I
write songs I get depressed. I feel sad...and once I do, I'd try to
make my lyrics more positive. When I try to make it more positive, it
becomes unauthentic or fake. I'm feeling kinda screwed.

Here are my questions:

1. Am I the only one suffering from this shitty dilemma? Have you felt
depressed when writing your songs? Is this normal?

2. Should I give in to my emotions and write songs genuinely no matter
how depressed I get? or should I stop writing for now and wait till my
life improve?

3. I also need a mentor. I love writing music but I suck. I live in
Cambodia and have no idea where I can get a good mentor. I am mostly
self-taught and have little understand about music theories. I don't
have desires to make music my profession...I'd just like to be better.

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